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Took a second hit with another rejection email. Seriously? Back-to-back no’s? Well, what did I learn (again)?

  • My best friend is wise and knows just what to say at times like these.

  • Finding a fit is hard, especially when you are “mixed” professionally and personally.

  • Renewed respect for writers who

  • My dog really doesn’t care if I’m published or not.

  • It’s not allllll bad. Other parts of my job are going just fine, better than fine actually.

  • Something simple can shift you from blah to smiling… like the video I received via email yesterday and I’ve reposted below:




So I didn’t get a grant that I applied for, and well, that was pretty darn disappointing. At first I couldn’t get beyond the first paragraph with the whole “We regret to inform you…” part, but later when I reread the email I learned in the second paragraph that only 6.5% of applications were funded. Hmmm… One person told me that the funding organization should have indicated on their website that folks had a “snowball’s chance in hell” in getting support. While I appreciated the sympathetic tone of that comment, I still had a hard time reconciling the time and effort spent on the application and the non-result. Another person with an air of efficiency said to solicit feedback and then try again when the funding cycle opens up. His overall business-like attitude was both helpful and annoying; the latter because I’m not quite at the point of treating these applications as “just business,” though for my well-being I am slowly finding that I must do so. Getting funding and more importantly getting published feels so high-stakes at this stage of my career. I want and need to catch a break. All that I’ve read about writing says that failure and editing and resubmitting are all a natural part of the process. I think I can get on board with that better if I caught a break sooner rather than later…


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